When we are truly in this interior simplicity our whole appearance is franker, more natural. This true simplicity...makes us conscious of a certain openness, gentleness, innocence, gaiety, and serenity, which is charming when we see it near to and continually, with pure eyes. O, how amiable this simplicity is! Who will give it to me? I leave all for this. It is the Pearl of the Gospel.
~ Francois Fenelon
ok so here are a few things i want to do this summer:
simply to continue to seek God not only through study, meditation, and prayer, but in my art, where and how does God exist within my art, my painting and my photography? this i often ask, but do have no answer for it.
redo my website
add to my portfolio for my future company
research and save for Anthony and I's internship in India. oh i have dreamed to go to India, and i am so excited for this to come true.
these are some of my goals for the next two years, they are always changing, but at least i have them. i made these a while a go, and i have some great friends that are keeping me accountable. so far it has been super hard to keep up on my daily objectives, so that i may achieve my goals. but it is a WIP (a bIG work in progress). And a big IDOP (in desperate need of prayer) at all times!!
these are not all of them but a few- i am only posting them because this blog is more like a journal for me, i don't foresee anyone reading any of this, and if someone does it will be Carissa my sister-in-law, or Jecca (my best friend) and ANthony- well he reads everything i write. personally there are just two many goals that i created for myself- which has caused me to be overwhelmed and unable to accomplish anything. my list is so long, so i won't bother to write it in here, but the thing is that i have learned to only focus on few things at a time, and the main thing and most important thing is to always by living for God, in everything you do, just simply to bath in His presence, and in His word, and he will change you from within. Why is this so hard to do sometimes, sometimes it is so easy and our soul yearns for it, and others it is so hard. But if we make this a discipline of our lives, than through Him, He will guide us. It all comes down to one thing, "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all things shall be yours as well." (Matt. 6:25-33)
i have been feeling lost lately, not sure what my plan are, or where Anthony and i will be 5 years from now, but i have learned that i need to seek His Kingdom first, and all will be reveled in time.
"Refuse to be slave to anything but God." Richard J. Foster
Anthony and I were married August 20th 2006 at Murphy's Landing in good old beautiful Minnesota. It was a extremely beautiful day, and could not of been more perfect. Sometimes I wish we could do it all over again, just simply becuase it was so much fun, and so very precious.
that day before thanksgiving of 2005, anthony asked me to be his wife, after 30 minutes of silence and i am sure much torture for him, i finally said "yes" i will. i did not mean to be so mean, i just simply did not know what to say.
my friend Sarah took these awesome engagement photos of us. i just love them. they where taken at our favorite place to go for a date, Otsego Park, Anthony and loved going there to talk and read.
anthony and i's love story begins in Vancouver, BC. this is where tara and i where on a one year adventure, we had originally planned for it to be a 4 year adventure but than tara dropped out of school and i decided i wanted to go to school somewhere cheaper, hey what's wrong with that?!
anthony and i began to talk on the phone, internet, and by email. than that may after i got home from school and we started hanging out together more often we decided to start dating, and the rest is history.
here we are at valley fair August 2005, doing the classic photo both thing.
long time since i last posted- i am going to try to be better at this. i don't understand this blog thing- how do you add friends- how do you comment on other blogs- this blogger is a bit confusing for me. i did not think i was technically in capable but maybe i am.
i have been sick for the last 3 months, well since December, on and off, every two weeks it is something different, a new virus, it is getting extremely old, and i wish i would just be healed. i am so sick of being sick.
